I guess I am just feeling sorry for myself today, although I really do not know. This morning shortly after I got up, I started feeling a little lost. I realized that I have no purpose, no sense of being. The only thing that seems to quiet my stinking thinking thoughts is making manuals. I… More Lost, but am I hopeless?
I know tears are a way of relieving pain or can be an expression of joy. For me, many times, it is just the bipolar having it’s way at the moment. Lately, my moments seem to be very often and I am not feeling any relief. Sometimes I am sitting in the library and I… More Tears, tears, go away today
It seems as though every time I come to this site, it has changed. It confuses me sometimes (which I am not ashamed to say) Anyway, some time ago I realized I have a memory problem at times. For example: when my children were growing up, I thought I worked a lot of years for 12… More Memory problems
I like to remove myself from an awkward , situation, especially if it is one that I created. Sometimes the tears flow and the nose runs. I am having a difficult time putting an end to the way I feel. Someone said, getting teary is weak and is kiddie shit. I try not to, believe… More How can I change me?
I am so sensitive I cannot distinguish between me and the bipolar. Lately, everyday I break down and cry. Sometimes, it seems that I even forget to breathe. What is going on with me? I am wondering if I need a medication adjustment or am I having mixed episodes from day to day. I realize… More stop the crying
Am I making myself feel sick and like breaking down crying or is it one of the things people living with bipolar tend to experience? I have tried to seek out ways to find love. Someone that will put his heart into trying to understand what is going on. That will stay even though he… More Making myself sick or
The start of the holidays are upon us. Thanksgiving Christmas The New Year’s Eve Parties These are really rough times for me: crying for unexplained reasons. Sadness creeping in to the point that I have to be aware on a daily basis all throughout the day that it could easily turn into depression. These are… More Holiday: smile or tears
I was talking to a new friend I was interested in getting to know better. We would have very long phone conversations and then he would start sharing some of his observations about me. He kept saying, I (being me) don’t know what I want. On just about every occasion he said this, I took… More Is this normal or is it bipolar?
At one point I felt I was on a good path to doing some good things in my life to help other people. Lately, I feel as though I am just walking in circles. I have no idea what I am doing. I feel as though my head is in a fog. I have no… More A little lost
Lot has happened since the last post. Mostly, I kept forgetting the password even after creating a new one. I have started dating through a web site. It took a few dates for goofy me to realize it is just a pick up site. At the time it really did not matter because I was… More It’s Been A While