I feel really stupid and dumb. My child asked how I was doing in a text. Told her mixed episodes and that I am seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow.
She said no not the bipolar you. How stupid was my answer.
Although it is the truth of how I feel, I should not have said it. They don’t need to know how I am feeling at the moment when I experiencing bipolar symptoms like paranoia. From now own, I must write myself a note, not to talk about it with anyone except the psychiatrist and the therapist and my journal. This is one of the lonely times I was talking about, but it is ok because I am ok with me and I am the only one who has to do with me every moment of the day. I can seclude myself from everyone else so they will not be affected.
Has anyone else felt alone. Like you can’t or should not tell the truth about how you are feeling? It is hard for your family and friends to hear and sometimes they don’t really want the details. Just good, great, fine and how are you, in the meantime you feel so mixed up and upside down.
The end result is that I said I was doing great. I was back into woodworking (didn’t tell her that’s what I do when restless which leads to mania), started a blog (didn’t tell her about what because that is related to the bipolar) and something else. I really am ok with spending the day alone again.
Any answers or suggestions or comments to today’s question/ Are we really supposed to tell our loved ones how we really feel?