I feel good. Stronger mentally and emotionally. I feel more relaxed and a better me. Worked on some issues that contributed to my depression that I did not know existed.
At first I was fighting being hospitalized because I was sure I knew what I was depressed about, but I was kidding myself and doing a good job of it. When I stopped fighting myself for being there, the real work began. I discovered underlying issues that needed to be worked on.
The experience was bitter sweet because I wish it could have been avoided but when we need help and run out of answers we need to take it to the next level of care. Now I know what else to work on.
I am also going to research where I should go if I get into this situation again. Where you are can help you accept hospitalization more quickly and get on the road to recovery sooner. You may not need total hospitalization. You may only need partial, but you need to know your options and where to go ahead of time. Get something in place and let someone know.
With bipolar disorder, you might not know the cause of the depression or what triggers it, but when it becomes overwhelming you should not be afraid to seek out help. You may need to reach out to someone in your support group or to your therapist, psychiatrist or even go to a hospital. Just get the help you need. It is vital. Remember, mental illness does not go away. There is no cure, but it is treatable.
love to all. be good to you and purpose to have an awesome day.
pb aka peanut butter