I find that living with bipolar 1, also known as manic-depression. I must live moment by moment and not always day by day.
In addition to bipolar disorder, I also struggle with anxiety and panic disorder. They seem to go hand in hand for me right now. But I am working it as well.
Anxiety and panic can turn my life upside down at the drop of a hat. One minute I am fine, the next minute I can be experiencing feelings totally out of my control and for what seems to be no apparent reason.
When this happens, whatever I may have planned to do may have to wait. Whatever I was doing, may have to stop. There is no warning and so it is not something I can prepare for. I can be in normal rhythm, manic or depressed. It has no set time.
I am struggling with bipolar and am striving to be mentally healthy all while trying not to sweat the small stuff. Easier said than done some days.
But, I will do what I need to do and take my medications, go to therapy, attend groups, attend support groups and read and educate myself to new coping skills and ways to combat all that I struggle with. Sometimes daily and sometimes, multiple times during the day.
After all is said and done, is is still marvelous to be among the living. As long as I am among the living, there is hope for a brighter day. I am not waiting for a brighter tomorrow. I have to do all that is within my grasp to make today a brighter day whether it starts out that way or not.
Sometimes, I fail, but I try again tomorrow.