It is a new day. Thanks to someone in my support circle and God (she prayed with me before I went to bed last night) I was able to get a full night sleep and wake up rested. It has many a while since I slept practically all night and in a deep relaxed state of sleep.
Going to sleep at night was an option I had not relished in the past few nights or maybe a couple of weeks. Most of the nights I would drift in and out of sleep because I was afraid of the disturbing dreams that had happened and that I thought would continue. They made me not want to go back to sleep. One night I purposely did not take one of my night medications (helps me sleep, helps with paranoia and anxiety) because it makes it difficult to stay awake after a dream. I have to lay back down or I get a headache.
Last night I knew it had to stop and that I had to get a full night rest that could only happen with relaxed sleep which could only happen if I did not have the fear. That support person prayed for me and I took all my night time medications and went to sleep. Next thing, I was waking up this am. Feeling refreshed and with a good mental attitude.
Waking up this way is the beginning of what I purpose: To have an awesome day and not let mental illness symptoms kick my butt. It is part of a mental illness wellness plan. I am working the plan.
You do the same.
love to all
pb aka peanut butter
By the way, if you meet me in person and call me peanut butter I will answer. lol