Like a see-saw

Highgate Park - Playground - See-saw
Highgate Park – Playground – See-saw (Photo credit: ell brown)

Up and down I go.

Sometimes day by day and sometimes moment by moment

Nevertheless, I go up and down

Like a see-saw

That is what mental illness has been like for me.  The high side is the mania and the low side is the depression.  Hard to balance alone.  That is where my support, resources and coping skills come in.  Still, I am never quite even, but it’s okay as long as I don’t fall off (that would be a tragic end).

I keep the faith that one day I will be able to return to work or start my own business;  one that will allow me flexibility for the down times of bipolar.

I cannot control the when, but I can most of the time control how I respond in a storm. Controlling my response by using my tools and my support system, keeps me from falling off the edge.

Still, some down time may be required to get back on track before I hit the ground.

So, I keep hope and faith alive.  One day things will fall into place.  Without hope and faith of this, there is no fight in me and I have to keep fighting in order to keep living with the mental illness so it does not take me out.  I am more than bipolar.

So are you, so be good to you

love to all,

pb aka peanut butter


Author: Fighter

I finally accepted what people have been telling me. I am full of knowledge and wisdom and I am unforgettable. My word of encouragement since 2015 has been to let others know, despite the waves and ripples in our lives, Life is totally awesome, even with a mental illness. I believe my purpose is to encourage others, advocate for those around me who have not yet found their voice to advocate for themselves and educate those without a mental illness. If for one for minute someone laughs or smiles because of something I said, that is one moment they did not think about mental illness.

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