Time for me to check in with me.
It is the early afternoon and I am still anxious. Even more so than before. I have no idea of what is causing this anxiousness. It this am and I took my medication for anxiety but so far, it has not left. I went out to the house of God for service and it was still there. I felt myself rocking back and forth which is something i do when I am anxious. I rock when I sit and even when I stand. I need the constant movement, even though I don’t know why. However, the anxiety is there and I don’t know why? Is it because: Even though I have said good-bye to us, there is still a trickle of something there and I am hoping in expectation of your call. Sounds silly, but could this be it? will check in with self later. getting on the move again and hoping to stabilize to be able to sit still and watch a comedy. It does’t really seem like the anti-depressant patch is working. Feel like I did when I was in-patient. Still, time will tell and better for me to be able to tell on the outside of a hospital than on the inside. for now, is is another AHHGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHmoment pb aka peanut butter