I seem to function very early in the a.m. Starting between 4 and 4:40 am. Sometimes around 2-2:30 am.
When I get up at these times, I am refreshed and ready for a new day. Especially after a hot cup of coffee.
Is this manic? I don’t know.
I do the same when feeling depressed. I am not much for sleeping in.
Although, sometimes when I think I am just bored, I go to sleep for hours. Wake up and take my night medication and go back to sleep for 6-8 hours more. I do tend to lose interest in things at this time and do not want to be alone with my thoughts.
I don’t think early rising and inability to sleep late, is listed as one of the symptoms of bipolar (manic-depression), but I do know it is one of my traits.
Looking back over time, I see that I have always been an early riser. Even when I was not working. And when I was working, I never had to hit the snooze button. I woke up and was ready to get up and get going, no matter what the clock said.
I recently had a conversation that left me wondering if I am bipolar.
I question my diagnosis from time to time?
Does anyone else ever question whether or not they are manic-depressive?
I know I go through depression: sometimes worse than others. Sometimes it gets scary how low I feel and the thoughts I have.
I know there are times I am filled with rage. Out of left corner it hits me, even when I seem to have been feeling fine.
Is there something else that is not right in my brain that is causing a trigger for me to feel rage and I don’t know it.
Even though I keep getting the same diagnosis, the medicine only seems to keep me even keel for a while. Maybe I don’t have bipolar. Maybe that is why the medicine does not work for long.
Sometimes I can function off 3 hours of sleep a night. Is that normal?
Sometimes my head is filled with projects and ideas are too numerous to write in one sitting.
I can plan a project from beginning to end on paper and then start another one. Sometimes, I have to admit, I don’t finish planning one project before starting another one. That is why I have a project board.
Does anyone ever doubt their diagnosis of many strangers, when one person you know personally tells you otherwise?
Do you think everyone with a mental illness, questions their diagnosis at some point?
Maybe I did not hear correctly. Maybe I heard correctly but misunderstood.
love to all,
pb aka peanut butter