One of my dear friends have decided to cut me out of her life.
Another one has made it more than clear, does not want to talk to me, although I now realize for both of them it has been coming for months.
For one I did not want to beleive the hints I was getting, like them not returning my calls for weeks.
The other. I tried to explain somethings and they decided they needed to set boundaries and cut me out of their life to protect themself from me.
I act out self destructive behavior for reasons I have yet to realize.
My actions push people I love away. I understand, they have to protect themselves.
I used to think I was a nice person. Now even I want to escape from me, but that is not possible. I am the one person I cannot get away from and I don’t know what to do.
How did I get to this point?
There is so much hurt and pain inside of me that I cannot escape. I don’t have a game plan. I don’t want to lose anymore people.