The day had a lot of twists and turns but it turned out fine in the end.
I got a lot of things accomplished. Not all the things on my list were done today but I did go to the thrift store for a little light therapy.
I got 4 books for a $1.72 and had a cheap lunch and some coffee from McDonalds’. I really treated myself today.
Finally finished up the projects at home that I had been working on (did not cave to depression or the no drive mania) Score 1 for me and 0 for manic-depression stopping me from having a good day. I fought through the conflicting emotions.
There were moments of depression that threatened to stop me in my tracks,
Doing some meditation at the therapist office really helped calmed me down since I was still in high gear when I got there. Was sitting on the edge of the chair but soon relaxed and sat back focused on my breathing and allowed myself to let the anxiety go.
We decided that I definitely need to work on things other than how to live with the bipolar. I am going 75 miles an hour sometimes shifting gears between depression and hypo-mania that it is difficult to use all the tools in the toolkit but I did use some of them this weekend and this morning.
Whenever I get dressed, it is major victory, especially if I stick to the plan and wear a light colored top. It brightens up my face and I usually get a compliment, so it must be working.
Actually getting out of the house is another victory. Staying in does nothing good for my mood, no matter how much I find to do.
Still, I am getting a little anxious about going back home. I don’t know how my mood is going to shift if at all. Hopefully, I will be too tired to think about anything except taking my night meds and going to bed. Let tomorrow worry about tomorrow.
hope you had a better day than you thought,
love to all
pb aka peanut butter