I am truly thankful that I have not been depressed but it seems as thought I have not been completely myself either.
Anxiety still gives me problems in the morning and that I can do without.
I remember when things seemed to make me laugh so easily, now it takes effort to laugh. Sure, I laugh sometimes but not nearly as much as before.
That laughter was energy and now even though I have the energy to function and do the things I need to do, I don’t experience the high energy of fun. I don’t seem to make people laugh anymore and that is the part of me I miss and so do my friends.
I wonder if this is the mainstream just above depression and maybe the medication needs to be increased.
I miss the silly, high energy me, filled with new projects. I haven’t thought of any new ones in a long time. Even my home office doesn’t motivate me right now.
I wonder if it is bipolar or just the weather but I miss all of me being present everyday at 100 percent plus some.
Love to all
pb aka peanut butter