The last three mornings I have been wide awake between 3 and 3:30 am regardless of what time I go to bed.
So far there are no signs of mania but I do feel like myself. A self that I am ok with. I’m not setting fires and impulse control is better.
I get a little irritated here and there but it lasts for a moment. I am keeping a check on it such as why, how often and how long it lasts.
Although I feel good, I am not feeling on top of the world. I am not taking on projects but learning to focus on one thing at a time. I can even read a book.
Is this what normal is supposed to feel like? I could stand just a little zaniness to spice things up but I’d better stay in the safe zone.
However, I do miss the adrenaline rush I get when I have more than one project on the burner at a time. It gives life an extra boost. My days seem so exciting and every day is sunshine.
I’m at the party, but not the life of the party. Learning to have a good time without the craziness of mania.
Anxiety is down and I am able to get things done. I’m okay
love to all
pb aka peanut butter