Things have been pretty zany lately.
It feels like I have been walking a tightrope without a safety net. The safety net would have been my support system.
I have not been manic for a while and this time was more intense than it had been in the past. All the emotions were at the extreme end of the spectrum and I was there alone. My support system was down and I was on the high wire with no one to spot me; needless to say, it was very scary.
The mania has passed and I am back to the middle of the pole. I can finally exhale (for now) and just in time because I have started applying for jobs in the mental health field.
With a position in the mental health field I will be able to take all the good, the bad and the not so good experiences of living with a mental illness and hopefully give someone else hope and inspiration for new and better tomorrows.
I believe we can help others who are struggling with and trying to get balance in life with a mental illness, when we are willing to share our struggles and victories with them.
Sometimes hearing what someone else is experiencing reassures us that we are not alone in what we go through. This knowledge helps me remember in a storm that I will get through this just as others have. Someone else’s victory gives me strength to hold on as well as remembering my past rise from storms. I am like the phoenix who rose from the ashes.
Rising like a phoenix from the ashes
I love where I am at this point in my life even with the mania. Sometimes the mania makes life more exciting because it causes me to go outside of the box society tries to keep people in. It can be amazing and exhilarating living out of the box and making your own tracks in life.
Everything that I have gone through and will go through make me who I am and make me a stronger person. I no longer kick against the things I have no control over (bipolar mania and sadness leading to depression- chemical imbalance), but embrace what makes me unique and try to live everyday to the fullest.
A person will never meet two bipolar people who are the same because even though we have the same diagnosis and experience mania and depression, it is different for everyone.
Live life to the fullest regardless of where you are in it. Always reach for more than what you have and further than where you are. You deserve all that life has to offer. Go after it with all the gusto you have and use the force of mania to propel you as far as it can.
Love to all,
pb: Persistent and Passionately Pursuing my dream to support and uplift others on their journey.