Please remember that….
Behind the forced laugh, there may be pain
Behind the jokes, may be tears
I don’t want to be this way
I don’t want to cry all the time for no reason at all
I don’t want to be flat line where I am neither up nor down in spirit
I don’t want to chase you out of my life with stinking thinking and everything logical becomes illogical and illogical becomes logical
I don’t want to have a sick mind, but no matter how much I laugh, joke participate in life, my mind will always be sick.
No matter how many jokes I tell or laugh at
No matter how much I smile, sing, dance or celebrate life
My mind will always be sick.
Sometimes I am in remission and everything is fine
I am neither manic nor depressed
I rejoice, I say life is totally awesome
My mind is still sick for it will always be sick because there is no cure for mental illness
It is treatable but not cureable
So please remember these things when I seem to be distant, sad, depressed, manic, have stinking thinking, seem to be out of the loop of life, impulsive, living on the edge or any other thing out of character you may hear or see
Please remember, my mind is and will always be sick and please, please be patient with me
For these moments no matter how long, will past and the one you know and love will resurface again and I hope you will still be there