Here we ride again

Walking along even keel and then without noticing the warning signs, I am on the roller coaster ride again.

This time it is worse, in my mind, because, I am manic and depressed in the same day.

Each room I go into is a mess because I start different major projects or tasks but never seem to stay focused if I go into another room.  Before long every room I have gone into is a train wreck.  I sit down and write out plans for projects.  All this is part of my mania.

Before long I am crying because that depressive pain grips me and I just want to escape it.  It is so great it is almost unbearable.  The tears are steaming down my face and I am afraid to reach out to anyone for fear they will send the ER squad to take me to the hospital where they will lock me up and take away my freedom.

Has anyone else gone through this or a similar experience of any all of the above.  Please let me know.



Author: Fighter

I finally accepted what people have been telling me. I am full of knowledge and wisdom and I am unforgettable. My word of encouragement since 2015 has been to let others know, despite the waves and ripples in our lives, Life is totally awesome, even with a mental illness. I believe my purpose is to encourage others, advocate for those around me who have not yet found their voice to advocate for themselves and educate those without a mental illness. If for one for minute someone laughs or smiles because of something I said, that is one moment they did not think about mental illness.

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