I like to remove myself from an awkward , situation, especially if it is one that I created.
Sometimes the tears flow and the nose runs. I am having a difficult time putting an end to the way I feel.
Someone said, getting teary is weak and is kiddie shit. I try not to, believe me I do. I try to be emotionless around people and cry in silence. I am afraid to let people see me cry. It is a sign of weakness and I cannot be weak.
Lately, I feel like moving away and becoming a hermit. Maybe then I would truly be with me being me. There is no one in my family or small group of friends I can share this with. It translates, that I feel sorry for myself and I do not want to feel sorry for myself.
I have felt like a fool for who I am and what I around around people that are close to me. It is not how they make me feel, but how I interpret how I think they may feel.
Kiddie shit. How does one really stop crying. There is never a need to cry. Two different people have told me I feel sorry for myself. When I am told that I try to figure out how to stop crying, an indication of feeling sorry for myself. I wonder if I need medication,they clearly do not think I do.
I am told, don’t go calling your therapist. Which I don’t. My conclusion is that this person does not know me and does not desire or care to get to know me.
It’s all good. Because I am overweight, my feelings should not be hurt about that and I agree, they should. Even though I have no thyroid, that is not a reason it should be hard to lose weight.
How do I change how people in my personal life see me. I cry and I am sorry. According to you, I am weak. I know I walk away to keep things from escalating but you think you know me and are ready to say I am getting chocked up. Have you not noticed I do not cry or be all of who I am when I am around you?
I am strong in my own way. Just because I show emotions does not mean that I am weak