Look closely enough and you will see me having a great time with my peers. We are with each other to be supportive, to have fun and to join together as a family.
I am still ambitious. I want to make sure I educate as many people as possible what bipolar really is. Not what they think, not what the media feeds them and certainly not what people who stigmatized us tell them.
As people with mental illness we are sometimes shun by family, friends, acquaintances, co-workers or anyone who is a part of our life. All this because they lack the knowledge and some even lack the desire to take the time to educate themselves about bipolar.
To try to understand mental illness is a beginning.
Learning about bipolar symptoms and how to recognize them in me, is the beginning of showing me I matter and that I am a worthwhile person to you.
Going to support groups, at times attending therapy with me and even taking the time to go with me and share with my psychiatrist what you observe when I am on a certain medication, truly makes me feel you really do care about me mentally as much as you do if I have an incurable and visible illness.
Finally, answering my call when I give the secret word that I need help because I am ascending to the top of the roller coaster of mania or rapidly descending from the top that I bypass sadness and drop into the depths of depression. It lets me know, that as much as possible you will be there with and for me.
I am not a lazy thinker. If I say I do not know how to do something, please do not frustrate me by continuing to ask me do it after I have repeatedly told you I do not know how. Not only are you calling me lazy minded but a liar.
I am now offended and any good you have shown seem to make me wonder how much you really have been watching and listening to the real me.
I feel successful when I can make someone genuinely laugh or smile and for that moment allow them to forget that part of our brain is incurably sick.
It is a success to me when despite how much I unwillingly play tug of war with sadness, I get out of the house and say to hell with sadness.
I am passionately pursuing to be a peer supporter to all.
We are a special breed of survivors. We are all passionate about helping one another.
Who else knows how to help us best without saying a word.